An artistic legacy doing good things
Not even sure where to start, just have to get emotions out. I'm not much of a writer either, but here goes....
I'm pretty pissed. What the fuck is going on?!? Does this world not have enough amazing people dying from horrific disease that we have to go out and kill in random, sensless acts of violence.
My heart was torn to hear that Nate lost his battle with cancer at the beginning of the week. Then, 2 miles from where I live and my kids go to school, there's the Mall shooting. No one knows why he did it. No apparent reason, and he killed and wounded people he never met. Not that having known the victims would have been any better, but it really bother's me that there appears to be no real motive or reason for such a sensless act.
Typically I can detach a bit, not because I'm heartless or don't care, but if I don't, I won't be able to move on with life. It's just how I am. Even when it happened just down the road, my babies are ok, my husband is ok, so I'm ok.
Then today. I don't even know how to keep working or moving right now. 20 elementary kids. It's unimaginable to me, and hit me harder than I ever want. I don't care how far away this occured, both of my kids are in elementary school. It's just a bit too much for me, I guess, and I don't understand!
There are too many people fighting for their life from disease, it's what life is. But this... it just shouldn't be.
I'm hoping just by getting some of this out in words, I'll feel better. This is the safest place I know to do that. Now, I'm gonna go cry some more, try to get through the rest of my day, and go home to hug my kids and hope that I never have to let them go.