An artistic legacy doing good things
I can't believe this year has flown by so quickly. Seriously. I mean, it seems like just yesterday I was keeping it classy and ringing in the new year with a coffee cup full of pink moscato. But 2012 has been one of my most interesting years to date...with both a lot of good and a lot of crap. But we'll get to that in a little bit. For now, let's go over what I wrote last year.
I wanted to make the best of my final semester at college. I think I did! I participated in several service activities with Pi Sigma Alpha (political science honor society), visited Lansing with a group of students and hung out in the capitol and the office building of the House of Representatives--no big deal!--and managed to graduate with a 3.55 cumulative grade point average among other things. Not too shabby.
I have definitely become more active with my music. I've made a music page https://www.facebook.com/AllisonKerryMusic?ref=hl Like it and share! I've been learning a lot of new covers and have touched up and written many of my own songs. There is one that I've written which I believe to be my best song yet...though I think it requires some drums and a guitar accompaniment. I'm trying to figure that out. I did get some recording software for my birthday, which I'll be putting to good use very soon. Be sure to keep a lookout!
No tattoo yet...that kind of got away from me LOL Not on purpose, but I only remembered that I still needed to do that about a week ago, then felt pressured like something was hanging over my head. Plus, there's the money issue. But soon...I promise.
Which brings me to the final resolution, chilling the fuck out. Yeah, right. We can blow that to pieces. As many of you know, I sadly wasn't able to make it to Madison, Wisconsin in May for the Spencer Bell Legacy Show because the night before, I tripped over my suitcase and smacked my head against the wall. While physically, I only walked away with a bruise on my leg and a headache, mentally, I was a wreck. I've always been prone to anxiety, but I've been able to keep it under wraps, as I had been in school and working (so I was kept busy). Now that I had graduated, this incident set me off. My anxiety had been building for a while, since I was graduating and going through that whole "what do I do now" phase. I learned that I need to be kept busy, otherwise my mind just goes to shit. This is why I miss school. I complained about it, but it kept me busy and less prone to being anxious. I would love to go back to school and get my Master's degree, but I have no money--as I'm paying back my student loans at the moment. Plus, I've discovered just what everyone is talking about when they say they can't find a job. I'm working two jobs at the moment, which is fine because at least I have money. But neither are stable enough, and it seems like holding a Bachelor's degree, no matter what it is, holds no clout anymore. And excuse me if I'm not willing to work at least 50 hours a week regularly. I'd like to kind of have a life. But the fact that I don't have a real job all these months later, and I really need the money, is very troublesome. A receptionist, or an administrative assistant, that's all I ask for now. Yet, I get passed up by other people. Frustrating.
So goals for 2013 are as follows:
-Land a good full-time job with benefits, that doesn't expect me to be a workhorse and be there 50+ hours a week. Sorry, but that's not going to fly.
-Staying strong and not being anxious. I think once I get a full-time job, that will definitely alleviate some anxiety and it will keep me busy. But I do want to take the time and say thanks to all my friends for being so supportive of me. My anxiety isn't as bad when I'm chatting with or hanging with friends...so thank you. Even if you didn't realize it, you've been helpful.
-Get to the June Spencer Bell Show in Madison...again. I feel like this is a second chance for me, so I'm taking it and running with it!
-Get that tattoo, damn it.
-Not relying on social media as much. I feel as though Facebook, Twitter, and the like just suck you in and you become dependent on how many people comment and like your shit. Definitely not as important as actually talking to and hanging out with friends.
-Continuing to make music.
-This might be a long shot, and kind of depends on whether I get a good full-time job (I had better LOL), but applying for and getting into a Master of Political Science or Master of Public Administration program. I love learning :-)
I'm sure there are more, but those are the main goals. I hope everyone has a safe and happy new year!!